Gordan Struić

STILL.HOLDING

// system_status.log

> user: active
> stability: critical
> memory: leaking
> hope: cached (but inaccessible)

initiate self-check...
[OK] heartbeat detected
[WARN] touch: timeout
[ERR] comfort: not found

attempting to load backup: 
“before everything cracked”

> restoring...

— process interrupted —
error: fragment too unstable

manual override: HOLD()

system reply: 
HOLDING initiated 
no grip strength remaining 
still holding

not because I can 
but because 
there’s nothing else to do

STILL.HERE

// residual presence detected

booting...

> identity: 
... 
( )

> voice: 
?? 
unable to locate waveform

> presence: 
approx. 47% 
(no confirmation)

trying to connect:
to body
to meaning
to /you

response: 
[...]
(still here)

not online 
not offline 
just

— in between —

still here
as in:
not gone
not wanted
not gone

STILL.LOADING

// system_unstable : loop detected

initiate process: WAIT()

loading...

[  █▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒▒ ] 
progress: unknown 
timeout: disabled

// user requested update 
response: 
“soon”

looping . . .

> still waiting 
> still buffering 
> still pretending arrival is possible

run diagnostics:
> longing: infinite
> patience: depleted
> reality: bypassed

trigger fallback:
> prompt: destroy_self()

confirmation?
> [          ]

no input detected

self-destruct pending . . . 
pending 
pending 
pending


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Gordan Struić is a Croatian poet, guitarist, and lawyer whose work captures moments that pass quietly but leave a lasting trace. His poems have appeared in regional journals. He is working on his first collection, where inner landscapes unfold through silence, image, and sound.